Thats my excuse for being so emotional, sensative, wishy-washy, and blah, just emotional and retarded. When something bad happens I’m always thinking the worst, and I’m always quick to end stuff. I need to learn to just calm down and think things out and take it slow. Relationships have their ups and downs. But for the past month its been nothing but ups and downs, I feel like Im riding a dick. But I’m willing to fight for what I want and I’m not gonna lose the man I’m in love with. I’m a stubborn person, and I’ll get what I want. I just gotta learn how to be in love.. I’m new at it, but I’m gonna start making big changes in the way I deal with all the bumps in the road, starting right now.
Oh and p.s. I dunno why I picked this picture, or why it looks like this woman has cellulite on her upper coochie.. It was just different, and I liked it… Not the cellulite on the coochie.. but the picture.. ahh nevermind, good night.
Ok… So I’m a pisces?
30 MarAlone in Love
28 Mar I cant even begin to express how I feel. I thought I had found the man I wanted to spend my life with, and then this happens, and everything comes crashing down. Well, I dont want to say crashing down. It has been crumbling for a little while now. I feel like I’m so in love and he doesnt care enough. I feel like maybe I loved too much, if thats even possible. I dont know what to do. I feel helpless, worthless, hurt, betrayed, lied to, uncared about, disappointed, and the list goes on. He has the nerve to say, “I love you and I want to be with you. Maybe your right, we should move on I think you will be happier.” Who are you to tell me whats gonna make me happy? Cuz if my memory serves me right, it was YOU that made me happy for the past year. YOU and thats it. Nothing else. So what do I do now? Where do I go from here? Im lost. Im heartbroken.
Always and Forever…
18 MarSoooo, I’ve really been thinking about it…
17 Mar I went to meet with a recruiter from the United States Navy and I cant say that I was disappointed. He told me everything I wanted to hear and some things that I really didn’t but the things I didn’t wanna hear weren’t so bad. Im 20 years old and have nothing to show for it. I went to beauty school, and didnt finish. I dont have a job, IM A BUM!!!! Something I would be interested in doing is something in law enforcement. And the navy has jobs in law enforcement so I could be doing that and learning about what I wanna do when I get out and be getting paid at the same time. Four years in the navy is nothing really. I think I could definitely do it. As long as I have no commitments back home ::hint::hint::… but only time will tell. I cant keep putting my life on hold and do nothing but wait and wait and wait. If actions were being taken I would do everything I could to stay and make it work… But enough about that.
Heart Broken
15 MarDie, went home alone.. HALT, who goes there? …the shot wasn’t strong enough, air ball… I have a lot to say but it wouldn’t be fair to write a blog on the raw emotions that I’m feeling now, it would be mostly filled with anger. So I’ll wait…
Uh Ohhhhh!!..
14 MarToday is do or die time. Go big or go home alone. Today everything will either all begin or come to a screeching HALT!.. Buzzer beater, will he make it?!
Details coming tomorrow!
I Just Wanna Be…
9 MarQuickie!
9 MarSaturday is the St. Patrick’s Day parade in Pittsburgh. Everyone here makes a big deal out of it, as they should, cuz its one of the most fun days in the city. I’ll definitely be attending. Theres always the parade, where most of the adults and younger children are, and then there is Market Square, where all of us go to get drunk lol… I’ve been arrested so many times in Market Square on St. Patty’s Day. I think last year may have been the first year I didn’t get arrested, and that’s only cuz I wasn’t drunk. Hopefully this year I don’t get arrested and I can just have a good time.. But only time will tell and there will be pictures, i promise.
I’ve been kinda stressed a lot lately but hopefully this weekend will be different and I can just relax and just be happy… But I’m not gettin my hopes up ::sigh::… Happy Monday! :-
Diddley Doo…
8 MarI just decided that I’m gonna be adding more pictures and stuff to my blogs. I got a new camera for christmas and I really haven’t been using it too much cuz it was a pain in the butt to upload pics onto the computer I had out in Cali. But I figured out how to do it on this computer. So definitely expect more pics.
And I’ve been noticing that people take this bloggin stuff very serious. Are people getting paid for doing blogs or something? Please let me know where I can sign up. I’ll step my game up, scouts honor.
Oh, and I realized today that I’m quick with some stuff, such as reflexes, lies, and I’m a quick eater. But when it comes to comebacks and stuff, I’m slow as hell. Someone said something to me today. I dont really recall what the person said and I just stood there like “damn, he really got me with that one.” BUT THENNNN.. like 2 hours later I was at home watching Pitt shit on UConn and I thought of a comeback and it was sooo good. Stuff like that happens to me all the time ::sigh::.. Its crazy cuz I can lie instantly and think of something really good and believable but when it comes to comebacks, I’m like syrup… slow as hell, but not sticky… But yeahhh. I guess I’m off to bed now. Set your clocks forward!
Shew Fly.. DON’T Bother Me!
7 MarSo the weather in Pittsburgh has been amazing. It was just 75 degrees yesterday. So we had the doors and the windows open, getting fresh air into the house. I even did some spring cleaning a little bit early. But as I was sitting watching t.v. I heard a noise. The most annoying and frustrating noise everrrrr. I would rather listen to a car alarm go off for 45 minutes. Or a woman with long ass nails claw at a chalkboard before I have to hear the sound I heard. I thought I was gonna pull out my hair or scratch my eyes outtt!… It was the sound of….
*DRAMATIC PAUSEEEE*
A fly like flying passed my ear. OMFGG!>!asdlfkjaisfdgjasldjf.. I hate that sound more than anything. Then I get all paranoid, and then I feel like flies are all over me… GRRRR!… But yeah.. Just thought I’d share that. Hopefully everyone has an enjoyable Sunday.. and dont forget to watch UNC -vs- duke at 4 pm 🙂